A Rollercoaster of Emotions

On January 31, I still hadn’t started my period but I was spotting a little. I took a few tests but couldn’t tell if there was a line or not because it was very faint. I then took a digital test and it was positive! I was excited but I didn’t want to get too excited because of my past experience with being pregnant. I called the doctor and they ordered a bloodtest. Right after I did the bloodwork, I started bleeding more so I knew it wasn’t going to be good. I checked MyChart and saw it was positive but VERY low HCG (only 13).

That could mean one of two things.

1. That I was off with my dates. It could be low because I was very early on in the pregnancy (like 3 weeks) or

2. That I was miscarrying.

I knew I could have been a few days off but not weeks so I knew the inevitable was coming. Sure enough, I took another test a few days later and it was negative.

When the nurse called me with the results, she said to come back in a week and get my levels checked again. HCG(pregnancy hormone) should double every 48 hours. If it rises, it means the pregnancy is going good. If it decreases, then you are most likely having a miscarriage. I already know what my results are going to be since I have been bleeding a lot more the past few days. The reason I want to get it checked is to make sure that all of the HCG is gone. HCG can stay in your system for a while. I don’t want to be testing next month, thinking I was pregnant when really it was just leftover HCG from before.

I am going to talk with my doctor to see if there is anything else I can do or take ,such as progesterone, that may help when I am pregnant. Tim and I have talked it over and have decided that if we aren’t pregnant (and have it be a viable pregnancy) by the end of the year that we are going to start the adoption process.

We started showing Avery sign language DVDs and she really seems to like it. She is catching on fast. She knows Mommy, Daddy, sleep, eat, drink, and help really well. She (sometimes) knows shoes, socks, ball, coat and blanket. Tim’s parents watched her the other day while we went out to dinner. While we were gone, she learned how to say Grandpa. Her and Grandma were shouting in the other room to him. It is very cute. I will try to post some videos of her doing sign language.

Chewie is the best!

Mommy was all excited because I could of had a new brother or sister :(

Making faces for the camera

I went to Build A Bear and made a cute bunny. This is me picking out the heart to put in it.

I am signing Daddy and Mommy

I am signing "sleep". Its even funnier when I do this sign standing up because I bend over and look like I am going to fall. Mommy and Daddy laugh every time.